Moving On
How do you heal a broken heart? or a wounded soul? What do you do? How do you recover with such intense pain? It is such a complex feeling.
When you're hurt it seems like the time stops clicking. You feel lost and unsure of so many things if not all.
Mending a broken heart - - I had different experiences when it comes to relationships.
I was a senior high school student when I met a guy whom I know that he was the one for me. He felt the same way and said that I was the one for him, too. We were very, very happy together but we were both young. My grades were all going up because I was inspired but it was the opposite for him. He had difficulty in concentrating on his studies and, being in the first section, competing with his peers. He was bright and intelligent compared to me - - am just an average person. He asked for his freedom because he told me that he wants to prioritize his studies. He also told me that he loved me but he wants to establish himself first and promised to come back. I didnt believe him. I had no choice but to set him free. It was a painful experience for me. The first time my heart broke. I was in denial. I did not tell my friends about out break up. How could it happen to us. We were both happy with each other. Although our teachers disapproved our relationship because he was Mr. Right and I was just an ordinary girl with an average brain. Life went on for us. We see each other in the school ground or in the corridor but we never spoke a word because we know people were looking. He would visit me in the house every summer. Five years had past. After college graduation, he came back. He was professing his love for me once more and to told me to wait for another three months. I was dumbfounded - - I was happy and ecstatic but I wasn't free anymore. At this point, I had my second heart break.
I got married and had a family but this marriage lasted only for five years. Met various men in different types and shapes but the one man that caught my heart was a weirdo. A weirdo in a cute sense. He is weird because unlike the others he doesnt open the door for me (even the car door), he's not the impress me type of guy. He takes me out on a date not on a five-star hotel but on a cheap restaurant. He takes me to watch the sun set which I love very much but have not told anyone. So I fell in love again. We love each other BUT (I have no idea why there is always something - - you cannot have everything; why can life not be perfect?) he has children and a wife. My heart crushed. He told me that he and she had a falling out before I came in.
To make the very long and complicated story short, we were married after eight long and agonizing years. Life was difficult for us. People around us were unkind and untrue except for the really close friends we have.
Life with him is a bliss. He loves me and I love him. Although there are still some things that I do not agree with him - - minor things - - little things.
Now, I still have difficulty in learning and accepting the saying "that everything in life has to pass" but I guess it is true. Problems eventually has a solution. There will always be an answer to a question.
Indeed, time is the only answer. Time heals everything.
